and when everything is gone. you are still there.

so its been a long time sense ive wrote on this blog and yet i still have six faithful followers lol.

things with me are different now. i had too lose the one real thing i loved. even tho we has said goodbye im not real gone, my heart hurts when it beats and i can still feel her with every breath i take, i can still even feel her hands in mine even tho there are not there. i dont want you to hurt and i dont want this to go on the way it is. its true somethings are ment to happen but its also true that we have to fight for things. maybe this was ment to be or maybe it wasnt,but really i dont care what it was i dont like it and im going to fight it with every breath i have. because when its all said and done, after everything has fallen so far, i still love. i just love you and thats all i need to know. there is bad and there is good but threw it all my love for you can only grow. im still hear, and i plan to stay, our story isnt over yet, this is just another page. you dont have to listen and you dont have to care, but my hand is reaching out to you with that same feeling, of the first summer we had. taylor swift said it as best.

Crystal, you are the best thing thats ever been mine.

im still hear when your ready and even if you are never ready again... i promise you, i still be here.
06/03/09